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"Step to the edge, you and I

And we fall below

Take a breath, hold my hand

And now you're not alone"

- Munich, The Fray

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It's Sunday... not Saturday. Oh, well.

"And you can tell everybody this is your song

It may be quite simple, but now that it's done

I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world"

- Ellie Goulding, Your Song

It must be the worst thing in the world to feel like the only option you have it to end your life. I don't think the people that feel this way understand that their story is worth something. Their past is worth telling, and their future is worth being written.

Do they not see the lights? Do they not see all these people walking around, each having their own story to tell? Do they not see the care in their loved ones eyes?

It's like closing a book in the middle of the story, and once you shut it, you can't open it again.

It just saddens me. I want everyone to see their own light, I want them to realize their story is worth telling. I don't want anyone to feel so alone.

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Silence Sucks Saturday....

Well... It's Sunday. Get over it, I was busy!

And I'm done being rude. Happy Easter, everyone!

"Never let your fear decide your fate."

- Kill Your Heroes, Awolnation

Sometimes there are those mistakes in life that could either be one of the more stupid things you do or it could turn into something worthwhile. When you're a teenager you're supposed to make stupid mistakes, do stupid things. The reservations and careful calculating are supposed to be something adults have because they've acquired it.

What I guess I'm trying to say is that you have to live your life. You can't not do things because you're afraid. What kind of life is that?

"I don't want to drive in a big city because I'm afraid."

You're going to miss the lights, and the people who all have their own story, the grand wonder of all these people and places and things. You'll stay home in your little world and won't ever know anything else.

"I don't want to ask her/him out because she/he might say no."

What if she/he doesn't say no? What if she/he says yes? You'd miss out on a tender and monumental time in a teenager's (and probably some adult's) life. And if she/he does say no? Well, it's going to hurt. But you should feel proud that you had the courage in your heart to go for it despite the risk.

Just live your life. Don't be too afraid to live it, because that's not really living at all.

Ten Minutes - Paulo Coelho

Everything tells me that I am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. What does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back to where I came from because I didn't have the courage to say "yes" to life?

If I Knew

If I Knew what I was doing I'd be doing it. Because I'm only a sophomore.... only a sophomore? NO! I'm a sixteen year old girl that turned her depressing self-esteem issues into confidence that borderlines vanity. I play the tenor saxophone.

And I'm pretty bomb at it. I write. Anything, really. Stories, poems,........ blogs. Obviously. I love my friends. LOVE them. But... my old friends from my old home. My new friends.... they're my friends but I don't know if I'll ever be as close to them as those from before.

I like jewelry. Any kind, really. Dangly earrings, hoops, lockets, bangles, anything I just happen to like. That's kind of how I dress, too.

I love music. I can fall into it, let it wash over me like waves over rocks and smooth the rough edges of my soul.

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Corny, I know. But it's true.

I don't like things because other people like it. I like things because I like them.

I don't like people hurting each other, and I don't like to see people hurting. I'll help if I can.

I drive a red car.

I'm uber boy crazy. But aren't all near vain, 16 year old girls?

I'm just me. I don't play games.

I'm just me. But that's a lot. I'm not "only a" anything.